All Apologies, Thank You and a Promise to Try!

Have you ever been bullied? Probably...have you ever bullied someone else? Truthfully, you probably have. Finally, have you ever been bullied by me? Odds are pretty good if you are reading this, that I have. For some reason, I find it funny to pick on other people. Sometimes it's hilarious, but mostly it's just mean. It's mean to find some insecurity or fault and exploit it. Guilty! If we are close, I have really hit you hard. My biggest target, Mike. The person I have sworn to share the rest of my life with and I am mean to him, why? I take it for granted that he will always be with me, that we can survive anything, that our love will carry us through and that he will always forgive me. I do that with each of you. I am truly sorry. I am sorry that I tried to make myself feel better by making you feel like crap. All apologies to those that have been hurt by my words. 

Usually, it's pretty fun to be around a witty person and I know that I don't have to beat myself up to the point of self destruction. I want to thank the people in my life that have opened my eyes to the times I have stepped over the line from funny to mean. My family, close friends, some innocent by standers and again, my husband deserve a big thank you for having the courage to be honest with me. I love you for your kindness, understanding and willingness to see past the pain my words cause you. Thank you for your mercy, grace and unconditional love. 

Okay, I am a smart ass. I always have been, and I always will be. Better than being a dumb ass, right?  My hope is that I will not be on the attack and check myself when I begin to go too far. I know I can be funny without being mean. Now, time to put it into action. I promise to try to be kinder, more considerate and not to allow my words to cause pain. 

All Apologies - Nirvana

Thank You - Alanis Morissette

Try - P!NK